Time to Catch Up.

Blogging every day , every week or even every month is probably my weakest point because I either get to busy to tired or to lazy.  I believe that everyone gets to that point.  In this post I just want to update what has been going on for the last little bit.
When I left off Jon was working on his advance E.M.T he passed with flying colors.  He was able to get a job over at the hospital as an E.M.T. and then over in Burley as a C.N.A. all of this on top of being a firefighter.  The house that we were living in we finally had enough of not being able to take a shower and the landlord not doing a thing about it we were able to move out and in with my grandfather.  About two weeks after we moved out I had an accident falling down a couple of stairs and landing on the concrete.  Jon had just come home after a long shift so I was very grateful to have him there to know what to do.  He ended up calling for an ambulance so I got to take my very first ambulance ride.  I get there and they take me in for X-Rays and CT scans and they wheeled me to my room.  I was given a blessing by Jon and my father in law and in that blessing it states that everything will be alright but it will take some time to heal.  The doctor came back and cleared me that I could go home and that nothing was broken and I didn't have a concussion.  He put me in a neck brace for some comfort.  Even though the doctor said I didn't have a head concussion I was having problems like forgetting what I was doing or who I was talking to.  The headaches were really bad I had to be in the dark, my balance was off and ended up having vertigo.  Two months after the accident I was able to go to camp as one of the leaders and I had Vertigo really bad that it made me really sick but when I came home I thought that resting would help but I felt really sick and Jon wasn't feeling great either and so one night we were both throwing up but he eventually got better but I didn't and I couldn't keep anything down.  The day before my sister told me to take a pregnancy test because I was probably pregnant I really didn't want to but I did out of spite and the test showed up positive.  I didn't wait to tell Jon i rushed in and woke him up to tell him that we are pregnant.  He was so excited and is still very excited.

When we pray we sometimes expect to have answers right away but Heavenly Father has his own time and things have to work out before he can answer those prayers.  He really has been testing us on our faith.  We didn't know what we were going to do about the house and he gave us the option to move into my grandfathers place, we have prayed for children but knew it probably wasn't going to happen so we were looking into adoption but we felt like that wasn't the right thing to do at the moment and then we find out that we are pregnant.  We needed to find a place to to call ours and he gave us this amazing opportunity to move just three houses down from my grandfather so I can keep tabs on him.  God works in mysterious ways, and just having a little bit of faith in him you can move mountains.   

Things are Moving Fast!

Things have been moving so fast in the last couple of weeks that I have felt like that there is not enough hours in the day.  so here is the run down of what has been going on.  Jon has been going to school for his Advance EMT and his Firefighter 1 and CNA.  Yesterday Jon and I went to Twin falls for him to go take his written test for his Advance EMT and he was really nervous.  Before he took the test he was worried that he did not know what medication to give in an IV and so he studied so hard on that and when it came time to test he said there was only like two questions on that topic, and the rest he was not even sure what they were talking about, however there were tons of questions that he knew what they were talking about so he new the answers.  He did not know if he passed last night or not and kept checking online and nothing so this morning while I was at work he messaged me saying that he passed his test.  One test done several more to go. while we were coming home we were talking about how we want to live out in the middle of nowhere and somehow we started  talking about the Kimama Butte and how there is nothing left of this old mining town, and how I have never been out there, and so we got off the freeway and Jon surprised me by going out there and what a sight.  There is hardly anything left out there just some old foundations of some of the buildings and the old water tower.

We then went out to the butte itself and found a couple of ground caves, that Jon went exploring into.  I'm too much of a chicken to do that unless I am more prepared than what I was then.  we decided that we want to go back out there and take four wheeler up there because there were places that our little car could not get into.  

This left us very busy and very tired yesterday and wanting a shower but having a shower that wont drain the water is very frustrating so Jon took me to his parents place and he went to class so I got to help my father in law with farm chores and got to ride in the back of the truck and that was fun and made dinner and got to see one of the new calves that were born earlier that day, then several hands of the card game GOLF.  Then home we went to a beautiful night.  It was a long day but it was enjoyable and made some amazing memories with Jon that we get to share with our future family or to share with you guys. 

Another thing that I almost forgot to mention.  When I was in Idaho Falls for Time out for Women I got to see City of Enoch and fell in love with the band and so I ordered there new CD but was really sad that they did not have it out when I was down there so they going to ship it out to me and when Jon and I came home last night I checked the mail and there was a package for me and I was jumping up and down with excitement to find that I finally got my CD.

 I took it to work with me and I have been listening to it and I have a deeper understanding of Christ and his love for me.  I believe that everybody needs this CD in their life and I am hoping that they will come out with another CD because this is fabulous. 

Netflix-Where Good Intentions go to Die.

I am one of those people who works 8 hours a day comes home puts on sweat pants have the intentions to wash dishes, do laundry, or straighten up the house; and then I see the T.v. and then I lay down turn on that T.v. and watch Netflix, knowing full well that it looks like W.W. 3 has erupted in my house. I have hope and dreams of cleaning and then Netflix

I think if we set aside a certain amount of time to clean and watch Netflix I believe things will be better.  For Jon and I we have been doing a load of laundry washing a batch of dishes and straighten up the house watch an hour of Netflix usually Grey's Anatomy for about an hour, scripture and prayer and then we talk till we both are asleep.  For us this helps break the cycle of binge watching several hours of Netflix or Xbox.  

Idaho weather has very interesting the last couple of months but I believe that spring is finally here and I have been looking around when I am driving and I am like when did they put in that bench or when did they add in this store or when did this house burn to the ground.  I have become so absent minded due to spending too much time with my phone, watching Netflix, 

Heavenly father put us here on earth to take care of it and to not be idle, (this means being lazy).  I don't like being lazy because when I am moving around doing stuff it is so much harder because I am not active like I should be and I feel very fat and sluggish, even though I am only 120 pounds and 5 foot 5.  I hate this feeling!  That is why people fail to work out because they have been cherishing the good life of Netflix Cheetos,soda, and bonbons, and when they work out they can't breath their muscils are soar and they are like this is not worth it.  

Since Jon is a fire fighter he has be active in order to be able to carry people from a building on fire, and he has been going to these training and when he gets home he is drenched in sweat, and then for weeks he wants to work out because he feels weak, and then he works out and it gets to hard, he is soar for days, he is cranky because he hurts but wants to work out, because he hurts he wants to lay down and then he sees the t.v. and then he turns it on turns on Netflix and then bing watches what ever show he wants to watch.  

This is what the cycle looks like:

I am not against Netflix when you are done with doing stuff with your family, church, work, etc.  It is a great way to relax and enjoy your favorite show, but we need some self control as to how much we watch or play.  

Anxiety... It is a Big Deal

Have you ever blown up a balloon and you feel like hey that that is good enough and then somebody tells you need to fill it up some more.  You fill it up knowing that if you blow it up some more that balloon is going to burst, so you prepare for that scare that you are going to get when it does burst the fear rises and then the person tells you to stop you feel relief and then they tell you to blow it up some more so the the fear jumps and rises and then it burst.

This is how anxiety feels.  You can feel fearful , sad ,lonely, hateful.  You will probably cry, you might even lash out at everyone and everything that you care about.  You can take medication for it but it can make it worse or make you sleepy and when you fall asleep the anxiety will still be there when you wake up.

  

I deal with anxiety, I have my whole life.  Anxiety of failing a test, anxiety of losing my parents, anxiety of not being good enough, anxiety of not being able to understand things. I use to take medication for my depression because my anxiety got so bad that I ended thinking it would all go away if I just end it all.  Then one night something tragic happened to my family, and I thought to myself what type of roll model am I setting for my sisters.  I don't want them to see what I have to go through and think oh well if she can do that then why can't I do that?
I started to meditate but that didn't help much, I went to counseling, yeah it helped with some of the issues I have but it did not stop all the other anxiety that I felt that would come out of the blue.  What did help was music and doing something with my hands.  I play the piano, I crochet, I am constantly doing something with my hands even if it is just twirling my thumbs.  I started to blog to help with my grief but I have found that it helps with my anxiety.  
There are so many people out there who are diagnosed every day with anxiety that they will shrug it off and think "Oh I can manage that with just a nap or it does not exist"  It does exist, it is scary, and it is very hard to manage, but with will power, the right influence you can over come your anxiety.
We cam on this earth knowing the hardship we would face but I believe we didn't know the feeling of these hardships, but I also believe that not knowing the feeling of the hardships, we would not turn to our Heavenly father and ask for his help.  If we just ask for his help we can become stronger in him and in faith

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It is Always Negative

Before Jon and I were married we talked about starting a family and how many children we want. When we did get married I was deep down hoping for a honeymoon baby but alas the test was negative and for months I would take a test hoping for that second little line but that has never been the case, it is always negative.  With the two pregnancy's that I did not know about, I did not even take a test.

Jon has told me over and over that my worth as a women is not based on being able to have children or to be an excellent homemaker.  My worth is that Heavenly Father created me, that he loves me for who I am.  My worth is the love that I have for others that he has shown me.  To have Faith, Divine Nature, Individual Worth, Knowledge, choice and accountability, Good works, Integrity and Virtue.  This is the Young Women Theme.

Women and young women today have very little confidence in themselves and they don't believe that their worth is nothing, I believe that if they had these values in their life that things would be so much better for them to give them the chance in life to do better than what the world is telling them.  The world is telling them that you are no good because you don't look like this or that, or that you are not good enough, or that if your not a parent then you are useless or if you do have children that you shouldn't be because you need to work to make this world better.  for what I have to say to all of this NO you stop listening to the world, and you do what makes you happy, for heavenly father create you to come to this world and to be happy.  

Psalms 37:4 Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you desires of your heart.  

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#BEHAPPY

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#Justbeyou

My Weekend at Time Out For Women in Idaho Falls, Idaho

This weekend has been a very spiritual weekend as I was given the opportunity to go to Time Out For Women in Idaho Falls.  For those of you who have never gone, I would encourage you to go as it is the best thing ever for women to just sit back enjoy music and a spiritually uplifting message.

Here is the crew that was able to go to Time Out For women with me.  The lady clear in the back photo bombed us but she is pretty cool.  In our group we ha two sets of Stephanies and the lady made three Stephanies' 

Friday night we were given the opportunity to hear from City Of Enoch, a band that their CD will be released in April of 2017.  The introduced the speakers for that night.  There was John Bytheway, Tamu Smith and Zandra Vranes.  We first listened to John Bytheway.  He is a spiritual comedian, with a spiritual message.  He first gave us an analogy of when you go into a jewelry store how all the diamonds are on a black background to give off the illusion that they will shine brighter.  

In a dark world of sin and turmoil, we need to shine and stand strong in the gospel.  To be a better example to those around us.  A quote he said," When moral is so dark and we don't follow the world, we will shine against the dark morals."  So what can we do to shine?  We need to step it up.  Women need a time out.  when we are in Time out we need to stop, take a breath, get some instruction, and we need to do better.
when he was done City of Enoch came on the stage and sang Trust In You with the message of;  When we feel like our prayers are not being answered Heavenly Father knows us by letting us try and eventually he has answered them.  (The Link is not them singing as the CD is not out yet but this is the original artist)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qv-SXz_exKE

They had us close our eyes and imagine what our heavenly thinks when we are praying to our savior as they sing He Hears Me.  This is what I wrote down.  Heavenly Father knows when my heart is breaking from the sorrows of the trials that I have accepted in the pre-existence that has my faith shaken and the tears won't stop and I feel like there is no hope He Hears Me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f9to-HWK1Ms

Saturday as we had left to go back home we had all decided to go see the movie the Shack that had come out the night before.  it is not an LDS movie but the author of the movie is an LDS writer. I would encourage everybody to go see it if you are having a hard time finding Heavenly Father in your life and when you feel like he is not ever there.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CL0yUbSS5Eg

Christ Lives, I know it I believe it.  He has a plan for us and we will never know that plan in this lifetime but he does not do random.  If we just pray and ponder what he would want us to do he will answer us.  He loves us.

Time Out For Women 2017

So I am very excited for this weekend because I have been given the opportunity to go to Time Out For Women!!!  Two years ago I was given the opportunity to go for my very first time, and I didn't know what to expect going, but I do not regret a thing.  Friday night I got to listen to Mercy River Perform and those three girls are so amazing.  They had us up on our feet enjoying ourselves. For the spirit that I felt when I had listened to them sing I knew that I wanted to (and I have) listen to them all day long, so I purchased their CD that they were selling.   It made me so excited for Saturday and Saturday was just as much as exciting as I have ever hoped for. there were so many great speakers but there was one that stood out to me and I wish I knew who the speaker was but her story went like this.  She had met her returned missionary and they got married and they were going to school at the time and right after they got married they ended up getting pregnant with her son, and shortly after that her and her husband both decided to wait a while to have children.  When they both agreed when they wanted to go for another child she had planned that by the end of that month she would plan on getting pregnant give birth during the summer break of school and then she can have time with her child however one month passed and then three months passed and then after a year of trying for a baby she finally became pregnant and her plan was back on schedule, and then three months latter she had lost that baby. Heavenly father is in charge of our plan we are not.  We can plan things but things sometimes don't go as planned.  I had planned a Christmas party for some friends and family and everything had gone to plan.  the house was cleaned the food was out, i had on my ugly Christmas Sweater and I was getting some dice for a game and I knew that there were some in a box of games and i was trying to balance myself with holding the box trying to get some dice and bam i drop the box and all the pieces had fallen onto the floor the couch everywhere.  yes it was just pieces but there was glass everywhere because it was my husbands game of Axis and Allies and if you all know how to play he included nuclear weapons and since there is no pieces like that he used broken light bulbs.  so there is glass everywhere, and the party was just about to start in the next five minutes.
Things happen no matter what you have planned for.  Heavenly father is in charge it might stink at first but we don't know the bigger picture and after a while knowing that one event that at the time was horrible there was a reason why.

Instagram page

Hey everyone to keep you all updated on our lives I have an Instagram page that I feel like is better than Facebook....My Instagram name is erinnandjonathanhunt so check it out

It Has Been a While

It has been a couple of months since I have been on here.  It has been kind of a forgotten project of mine but on the other hand ,it has been on the back of mind that I need to start blogging again, and since I have more time to blog now why wait let's jump back in the saddle.
So what has happened since April?  At the end of April, my husband and I were given the opportunity to purchase a new working car, since our old car decided it finally had enough and die on us.  My sister graduated in May and we found out that my grandmother was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer that has spread to her lungs brain and kidneys.  This has been hard for all of us but she beat cancer once and now it is her time to go, so we are waiting for her time to go and see our savior again.
  In June Jon and I where given the opportunity to move to the Bosie Idaho area so we were getting ready for the big move so I quit my job.  In July I was given the opportunity to go to Camp Bradley as an Adult leader and teach boys the age of 7-9-year-olds about flag etc quit and soil and land conservation.  spent a week away from my husband doing this and I ha a blast doing that that I decided i was going back and was going to take Jon with me.  When I got back Jon told me some heartfelt news that the company that he was going to be with withdrew their offer of a job, but that is ok because a week later we found that a prison inmate was killed during one of the nights so it was a probably a good thing that he did not take the job.  I was a little sad but that is ok because i had so much stuff that I wanted to do that I have had very little time to do anything so this gives me a chance to do the things I want to do and Not have to worry about work. In August Jon and I had a very hard time dealing with some things that had come up like my back acting very strangly.  I suffer from scoiliosis and it has gotten worse over time.  with that in mind on the 22 of August I had suffered another misscariage and this time I did nothing wrong.  this has been so hard on both of us and we have struggled about going to church even though it has only been a couple of weeks.  95% of the women in our church have only been married a couple of months and are expecting their first child or they already have children and they are expecting again.  The hardest part is when they slap it in your face that they are expecting or when they ask you when you are going to start your family.   In between all of this Jon and I have been to some amazing places like Hunt camp, Hagerman, Three Island Crossing, Albion, American Falls Mill.
In October I started working at a mortuary and I never thought I would work at a place like that, but it has been a blessing because in November my grandma lost her life to cancer.  In January Jon and I celebrated our second anniversary I can not believe it has been two years since we got married.  Where has the time gone?!?  It is now the end of February and next weekend I am happy to announce that I will be going to time out for women and I am so excited to go and have a spiritual uplift because I feel like I need something uplifting as I am in a slump. So that is it for now will be talking soon.

So A Little Busy

So I have been a little busy that I have not had any time to write on here, and then not having my camera cord has been a little frustrating because since the last time i have been on here a lot has happened.  Jon got a new job working for the company Safelink.  He is now an official E.M.T, So when the fire fighters get called out on a call and need E.M.T. he is in charge under the fire fighters. My sister Rose is having surgery soon on her leg.  She had a mass growing on her leg and we found out that when she was younger she had injured her leg and instead of it growing together to heal it grew up and off to the side.  It looks like a mushroom growing on the side of her leg so she is having surgery soon for that because it is painful for her to walk on.  She was also in play Seven Brides for Seven Brothers and she was one of the brides...however you ask me which bride i have no clue, but she did an amazing job and I can see her being one of the lead roles in the near future.  My other sister Alyce competed for the Title Miss Was Bonnet Roundup Rodeo and she ended up with title of queen.  So there you have it Been super busy with rodeo stuff and sister stuff husband stuff work stuff and I ask myself can I be cloned and be in several places at once?

Full cast pit and crew

My sister is in the green

My sister

The saddles for the queen teen queen and Princess

The competitors for the title of queen

My Hero's

So I just wanted to take a minute to update what is going on in my little life because I haven't posted anything in a while so here is the spill...Jon and I were able to go to the temple last Tuesday and while we were in Twin we stopped at the Police department because they are hiring police officers and that is Jon's dream job is to become a police officer.  They took his application and told him that they are testing on the 26 of February...yikes only a few days of training and we have been training our butts off...Jon is certified to be an E.M.T. and so he has been volunteering with the hospital and then just the other day he turned in his application to become a a volunteer fire fighter and was accepted for that and it boosted his chances of getting that because he is an E.M.T. so tonight he was given some of his equipment for fire fighter and I think he looks good in his uniform he looks very small in it.
Heavenly father hears our prayers in all things but we need to remember that we need to follow his timing.  we can have plans and more plans but things don't always work out but sometimes things work out better than expected.
This post is called hero's because Jon is my hero, but my father is my hero.  He was in the Navy.  He was a cop and a fire fighter before I was born.  My mom has told me stories about when they were first married how he was working for B.L.M. fighting fires and there was one fire that she did not hear from him for days and when she did hear him it was only for a few minutes.  I come from a line of military men and if i had a better back and hip and hearing I would have joined the Navy but things happened and my purpose is here and we all need to learn that it is not our timing but or father in heaven.

I wish i had a picture of my dad when he was in the Navy but I don't and I would have to find a really old picture of him or find one of the old Navy Yearbooks, but here is my Jon.  He looks so good in his uniform.  

Listen to the Still Small Voice

Jon and I were able to go to the temple yesterday and it was an amazing day but it was cloudy and kinda breezy and because it is still the middle of winter it was kinda dead.  we were walking hand in hand to the front of the temple and Jon was like look even the dead plants in the flower beds want to come in but the temple won't let them in because they are not worthy to come into the temple.  The temple is such a beautiful place that I don't want heavenly father to tell me that I am not worthy to enter into the temple.  I want to be able to listen to what my father is telling me.  Later that night Jon and I were having scripture study and we were in 1Kings 19:11-12 it reads And he said, Go forth, and stand upon the mount before the Lord.  And, behold, the Lord passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in pieces the rocks before the Lord; but the Lord was not the wind: and after the wind an earthquake;but the Lord was not in the earthquake: And After the earthquake a fire; but the Lord was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice.
Heavenly father is there but he is not the one that causes heartache or misery for us he is the one to let us know that hey everything is all right I am here.  He is there to listen to us when we need help and guidance.  I was in relief society Sunday and to me that is a big deal because most Sundays I am working so I can't go to Relief society but I managed to go.  Our teacher who her daughter has suffered so much in her life, and just adding one more thing to her was about it and she was like mom I give up.
We sometimes get to that point in our lives that we see all this distraction going on in our lives that can impact us negatively but if we hold on look up and listen to that still small voice we can make it back to our Father in Heaven.  He did not send us here on earth to fail, he sent us here to learn and grow so when we come back to him we can tell him all we learned from our mistakes and thank him for sending us there because we have a greater understanding of why we needed to come to earth.  Right now we don't know everything that is going to happen but I promise you al this, go to your Bishop if you feel like you are not worthy to go to the temple he will help and guide you so that you can be one day ready to go to the temple.  He knows the blessings that our Father in Heaven has in store for us.  Trust in him.
A quote by Howard W. Hunter: Perhaps what this world needs, is to look up to look up in our joys as well as our afflictions, in our abundance as well as in our need.
I left a link that if anybody wants to listen to this talk it is so worth it and you will be blessed to hear it.

https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2003/04/sweet-power-of-prayer?lang=eng

Valentines Day

For God

So Loved the world

That he gave his

only

begotten

son so 

that whoever

Believes

in him shall

Have everlasting life

John 3:16

I just wanted to wish everybody a happy late valentines day.  Valentines does not have to be fancy in any way.  What I did for jon is that I wrote on the bathroom mirror that i have put on here, and then we went to church.  When we got home I started to make dinner and had family and friends come over and we played Skipbo the card game while eating chocolate fondu.  It was pretty fun but very simple.  However I believe that love is in the air still.  I can't say anything about it but i am pretty excited of what is going to happen soon and it is going to be a fun date.
Also an update because i have not been on here for a bit...on Friday I am officially C.P.R. and first aid trained.  For me this is a big step because I am in the Ventures Program which is part of the Boy Scouts Program but this is co-ed for girls and boys and I now qualify for my Discovery award and part of my Trust award that I working on with the help of my wonderful husband.  With the trust award it is a religious award that has so many things that i need to get done and I am like my deadline is coming up very soon so I need to get a work on it but I have most of it done.   It has taught me a lot about other peoples religion and how not to judge other peoples way of worship.  You worship the way you worship.  I was taught in a very strong L.D.S religion and I am sticking to it because to me it is the right church.  others will say that their religion is the right religion, so I don't argue because they have been taught what they know.
We are all trying to better our lives by going to church other other things and we are trying to get to a better place with our lives so that one day we can be able to live with Heavenly Father.  I was not sent here on earth to bash other religions or anything like that, because i ask myself when people bash on the "Mormons" would the savior want me to do that to my brothers and sisters who don't know the truth?  We were made in his likeness so how could we be mean to other people?  Valentines day was placed on earth to show that we can love everybody and it is a reminder that we should try and love everybody.  I have a hard time with that myself but I have been placed here on earth to try and love everybody because i don't want to meet my maker and be sad because i treated somebody unkindly.
So I challenge you all who reads my blog to be nice to somebody new today.  Say hi to somebody or something I don't know but be nice.

Faith in Christ

This past couple of days I have felt severely sad and lonely have the feeling of no hope and despair is all i deserve.  I have made a horrible mistake of telling my best friend in this whole wide world of what I think of this one thing that has been bothering me.  I found a video earlier todays about Ted Bundy of before he was electrocuted about how he was raised in a good christian home and how one little slip of something could change your life forever.

I have no right to place judgment on somebody it is not my place and I am truly sorry if I have ever judged somebody to harshly but I am hoping that one day i can be forgiven for all of my misdeeds because it has dragged me down to feel like i have no desire to move on in my life.  

I want to give those who are struggling in one form of another that there is hope and help out there for you.  If it is by going to counseling or an AA meeting or whatever it may be get the help.  Remember to forgive often and to receive forgiving and to ask of it.  it is a hard thing so don't make the other person feel like they are all alone in this because we have the savior and he will be willing to stand by them and wrap his arms around them and help them so why can't we.  Come unto Jesus.

Sad Times, Happy Times

So I feel like I need to share this because there is not a whole lot of people that will openly talk about it and I feel like it gets swept under the carpet and us women will bury our emotions deep down inside us and so I want to share my story in hope that I can have other people relate to what I am going through or what you guys are going through.
November of 2015 I woke up one morning and new I was expecting.  I was throwing up all morning long and then I felt better and then i would try and eat something and throw it back up again.  I was going to go to work and then after work I was going to pick up a pregnancy test but I new deep down that I was.  Jon came home from work for lunch and I was headed out the door.  In our drive way we have these logs that divide our lawn from the drive way and I thought I had passed over them to get to the car but i tripped over it and fell twisting my ankle.  Jon didn't see what had happened but i was crying and he herd me crying so he went outside and picked me up and took me into the house.  My foot hurt so bad but by laying there I was feeling pressure and pain in my lower back.  i could barley move.  Jon gave me so Ibuprofen to hopefully take some of the pain away but it was getting worse so he took me to the E.R.  They needed to get some X-rays done and they did some blood work to see if I was pregnant and it came back negative.  I new I was going through a miscarriage.  When the Dr. got back my X-rays they told me I comprsed my spine and sprained my ankle.  i was still in a lot of pain but we were released to go home.
When we finally got home I new what I had to do and what was happening.  Jon helped me to the bathroom and then the phone rang and he went to go answer it and while he was on the phone I had the baby.  Jon still didn't know that I was pregnant or anything and I feel so bad that I didn't tell him.  I went and played down and cried myself to sleep for a little bit, but jon woke me up because the sister missionaries were coming over and my parents were coming over along with one of my brother in laws to give me a blessing of healing.  after everybody left we were finally able relax a little bit i was laying on the couch and jon was headed to our room.  I didn't want him to be in our bed alone but it was his choice but after five minutes of being inner room he came out with a blanket and pillow and he crashed on the floor for the night.
I had every opportunity to tell Jon what had happened but I couldn't find the words or the timing or anything in between to tell him that we had lost a baby.
Three weeks ago I was talking to one of my cousins who is expecting her first one and seeing some of my friends and family member who are not married and having children have really bothered me a lot because Jon and I have worked so hard to have a child and then losing one it opens up old wounds but I couldn't share it with Jon, Just that fact that we can't get pregnant.  Anyway as I was saying about talking to my cousin I told her about having a miscarriage and so on and so forth.  I had to go to work that day and so when I came home home my sister was over and was having out with us.  Jon was reading our phone and he was like "Why didn't you tell me?"  I was confused at what he was talking about and so he showed me and I started to cry and I told him that I thought you would be mad and there was a lot going on and I just never found the right time and that I didn't want him to find out like that.  He gave me a hug and we both cried together and he told me " that gives me hope to have a family."  My sister was confused so we told her what was going on and she was like you need to tell mom.  my mom came to pick my sister up the next day and my sister telling me in front of our mom that I needed to tell her.  I didn't say a word and didn't even look at her.  later that night my mom was texting me and telling me that when she got home she knew that a little baby boy was sent home to heaven.
I was able to go to the temple the other day and when I was in the celestial room I was given the words that Julian Reed will be just fine and that he is so proud to have been able to come to earth and have two amazing parents and that one day I will be able to raise him.
I know that God lives.  I know he has a plan for everything.  I know that this life is going to be a challenge and a trial of our faith to prove our heavenly father that we trust in him in all things, so that one day we will be able to make it back into out loving Heavenly Fathers arms.  I know that one day I will be able to see my children on the other side and the ones I didn't raise here on earth I will be given the chance to raise in Heaven.  I know that Heavenly Father loves me and that he cares for me. I know it I live it I believe in it.
I have come to terms that one day I will be able to have a baby and raise it here on earth and that they will know of their brother who is waiting for us.  The world is a harsh world and you will see friends and relatives who are expecting their babies but don't give up.  Be happy for them and know that your beautiful creation will be waiting for you to raise them.

Mom and dad are excited to meet you Julian Reed Hunt and we love you, but for right now you get your siblings ready to come to earth.  We miss you sweet little boy.
                                                                    11-17-2014,

My First Comment

So yesterday I finally got my first comment on my page.  I am so excited...it means I am finally moving up in the world lol.  now if everybody could make a bunch of comments that would be awesome because it is a spiritual boost in my life to get appraisal from other people.  so come on people make comments share my website and I promise in the next couple of post they will be really interesting to read.

Jackson Cemetery Idaho

So yesterday Jon and I were able to go to the Jackson Cemetery for some pictures.  Most people from the Rupert Idaho area are like there is a cemetery in Jackson?  To answer this little question yes there is a cemetery it is very small and it holds pioneers of that time in there.  Earlier this morning I found out that there are 17 people buried out there.  I found this out on Findagrave.com.  Hopefully in the next couple of months My Venturing group and the Boy Scouts will all be able to go and help clean this cemetery because it sure needs a lot of work.  but here are the pictures we were able to take.